Accurately documenting my tormented mental life amid phone addiction feels important.... but let's face it, it's also objectively funny.
I caught your brilliant pieces on Metta. Need to come back to you on that. Am wondering if Metta could fix my clearly slightly unhealthy attitude to the other commuters...
You spent 80 hours in silence. How me many hours were you talking to yourself? It seems I am always having a conversation. I think those conversations can be more toxic than the stuff I am getting on my phone.
This is a really good question, and definitely one I need to address properly in a post.
The short answer: in the first two or three weeks the conversations with myself were utterly brutal. My Achilles heel has always been “that stupid think I said at work” and most of my evening commutes home were full of it. There’s no way I would have kept going except for the high vis vest - it was dreadful.
Now it’s far more gentle. Like it’s a gale that’s blown itself out. I think I’d like to watch the new state for a few weeks before I report back properly, but I would say the mental weather has definitely shifted.
Enjoyed reading this, got a few laughs out of me for sure 🙏
That's so kind of you to say so!
Accurately documenting my tormented mental life amid phone addiction feels important.... but let's face it, it's also objectively funny.
I caught your brilliant pieces on Metta. Need to come back to you on that. Am wondering if Metta could fix my clearly slightly unhealthy attitude to the other commuters...
You spent 80 hours in silence. How me many hours were you talking to yourself? It seems I am always having a conversation. I think those conversations can be more toxic than the stuff I am getting on my phone.
This is a really good question, and definitely one I need to address properly in a post.
The short answer: in the first two or three weeks the conversations with myself were utterly brutal. My Achilles heel has always been “that stupid think I said at work” and most of my evening commutes home were full of it. There’s no way I would have kept going except for the high vis vest - it was dreadful.
Now it’s far more gentle. Like it’s a gale that’s blown itself out. I think I’d like to watch the new state for a few weeks before I report back properly, but I would say the mental weather has definitely shifted.
This made me laugh out loud a few times too. Needed that. Interested in hearing more about the seeing dead people.
Thank you so much for saying so! So glad it tickled you, I was giggling to myself writing it.
Although I'll now feel bad on the commute home staring at the “corpses”. Only do it because I am worse myself! Far worse…
Most of my writing is about the phone in my life.
Every time I talk about the commute it always goes pretty gothic and over-dramatic 😀
https://phonefreecommute.substack.com/p/day-16-the-lonely-spaceman-on-the?r=712j8x&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web
Next time I write about the commute I'll be cheerier!
Great read! Thank you.
Thank you so much for taking the time to say that! Really appreciated.